by | May 28, 2020 | Our Stories

"I'm not the right person for this."

Davy Zacharias, once the self-proclaimed “worst public speaker in history” is helping people find their voice.  And she never dreamed that would be her life theme.

In middle school, Davy says no one heard her voice, if she could help it. She didn’t like the sound of it. She felt self-conscious, hated public speaking, and didn’t think she had anything interesting to say. It went like this in her head:

“My thoughts aren’t valuable, my ideas aren’t defendable, am I even worth getting to know?”

Paralyzed and isolated, little did she know God wanted to use her greatest weakness as a strength. It all started at School of the Kingdom, a discipleship program that was in operation for a handful of years in the Pembina Valley.

“It was the first time people really wanted to hear my voice, they were interested in who I was.”

One evening, she was asked to share in front of the group. “I was shaking the whole time.” After spending 10 minutes struggling, voice shaking, fighting tears she opened up with a personal story that she assumed was the “worst presentation in history”. Only it wasn’t. It touched her classmates and the flood of encouragement washed over her.

“Something broke in me,” she says. “I’d been afraid so long, but it seems your greatest insecurity often reveals your calling and anointing.”

She left on outreach with School of the Kingdom, and ended up preaching to over 80 kids.

“I’m not the right person,” she emphatically told her teachers. Others, she felt, could crack jokes and work a crowd so much easier. But her leaders believed otherwise. After the talk, the youth crowded the stage wanting to ask her questions about her sermon, wanting to know that they struggled with the same things she shared in her teaching session. Others felt a connection and simply wanted to pray with her.

“It impacted people, it had mattered to them,” she says.

From there, God seemed to have more plans for her. She was asked to speak at a youth retreat at home, and continued to resist. “This is so not me,” she explained. Davy lead four sessions, but the main teaching session really caused her stress, “I was physically ill, I didn’t have energy.” So she sat for her talk. But she spoke from the heart. God was working in her weakness. And now her calling has crystalized.

“I know now I have a voice, and it matters… I think I always knew deep inside this is what I’m called to do.” Since then, when opportunities arise for her to speak, “I’ve started saying “yes'”.

Throughout it all, she’s gained a heart for others to find their passion and identity.

“What God does in your life isn’t just for you,” Davy says. “It’s for others too.”

Her advice? Embrace the messy process of finding your voice.

“Just be close to God, and be open… be open to taking a risk, open to going all in, open to not being mediocre.”

For 17 years, she believed she didn’t have a voice. “It was so ingrained… I thought things could never change.” But she continued to step into “uncomfortable opportunities.” While it’s hard not knowing what’s ahead, Davy says keep saying “yes” to God.